Life after War and Overcoming Post-Traumatic Stress – His Grace

Life after War and Overcoming Post-Traumatic Stress – His Grace


Growing up, we were involved
in everything together. He pretty much followed
me everywhere I went and kind of mirrored
all the stuff I was doing, for good or for bad. [MUSIC PLAYING] After some of the things
I did in Afghanistan, I was really proud
of my service. When I got home I wanted
to feel like I had done something for the country. I just wanted to be
normal, and when I got back it was anything but normal. Just like my brother said,
it was a rough transition. I had a lot of things
not going my way when I got back from Iraq. I didn’t really understand
what was happening to me. I got home and I started
to have repeated memories of some bad days in
Afghanistan, and I started to have nightmares
of some of the missions I was involved in. And I just couldn’t get
those images out of my mind. Couldn’t go to sleep at night. I couldn’t–[SIGHS]. I couldn’t believe that I
was involved in stuff like that–killing and
war and carnage. It just took me to a place
where I just didn’t want to be. Post-traumatic stress
attacks everything that’s really normal
and good in your life. Most oftentimes you don’t even
recognize it–a loud noise that scares you or a
flashback to a memory, smelling something that makes
you go back to that time. Your relationships
are so strained just because you’re always
in this inner struggle and you’re always
so tight and you don’t want to let anybody in. It just closes you off,
emotionally, physically, spiritually. Because of a back injury
that I suffered in combat, I was prescribed OxyContin. I started to self-medicate with
that to hide my emotional pain and to try to feel normal. Quickly that turned into heroin. Growing up in a good family
and seeing a lot of good things in my life–using
took away everything. The lowest it took me
was being homeless, with no money, with no clothes,
staying in an abandoned house. It takes your soul away. During this whole
period of time, we were with each
other every day. We were using together. I was hiding his addiction. He was hiding mine. I wanted to be clean,
and I wanted to be sober. I wanted to have a life in the
church that I was raised in, but at this point I couldn’t
even make that choice. I knew that I needed help, and
I couldn’t do it on my own. I ended up having to be in
the emergency room because of a complication that surfaced
because of my heroin use. It was in that
hospital room I finally submitted my complete will
to my Savior, Jesus Christ. And almost immediately,
when I finally did that, I felt a comfort that
I can’t describe. He knew what I
was going through, and He put his arms around
me and lifted my soul. And He took those burdens away
from me almost immediately. When he made his transition,
that was a big thing for me. That was the moment where
I woke up and said, “I have got to do something different. This isn’t what I’m
supposed to be doing. I was sent here to do
something different than this.” When I kind of came
to and woke up, I followed his example again. I didn’t recover until
I turned to Christ. I started to abstain from drugs. That kind of made my
post-traumatic stress resurface. There’s no way that those
memories can just go away. I harbored so much
hatred towards the men that killed my friends, shot
at me and tried to kill me. Through the grace
of Christ I was able to forgive them,
actually forgive my enemies. I was able to come
to an understanding that the Savior Jesus Christ
makes all of the difference. He suffered for my
post-traumatic stress, and once I finally came
to that understanding, I knew that every
day I could wake up and I could give that to Him. For me, I felt like I was in
this thing alone my whole life. But I wasn’t. When I realized that my
Savior Jesus Christ was always there–He cares for me, and even
when I can’t care for myself, in a world where everything is
so dark and everything makes you feel like you’re alone. That’s been my
anchor, and that’s been the thing that was able
to get me from where I was in my past to where I am now. The Savior literally
saved my life. [MUSIC PLAYING]

24 Replies to “Life after War and Overcoming Post-Traumatic Stress – His Grace”

  1. Awesome stuff!  Kudos to these two guys for making themselves vulnerable, by releasing this personal information for the welfare of others.  I'm really enjoying what the Church is doing through these videos. 🙂

  2. PTSD will truly be the issue of our generation with more and more vets coming forward. I applaud you, my brothers, for your courage to tell your story. You will open doors for other ailing vets to come to terms and grips with their situation. I wish you the best of luck!

    CPT Park
    11A
    Fort Benning, GA

  3. Thank you Mormon Channel for this video! I am in tears as I write this post. The Taylor brothers showed me that no matter how low in life you can get, there is always another way to change your life. I respect them for their courage!!!

  4. Very touching. This brings hope to all who suffer in many ways. Thank you for sharing your testimony.

  5. These messages are wonderful… I just have to say that it takes a lot of courage and strength for these people to expose their lives like this and that their strength can help many souls… Thank you 🙂

  6. Through our Savior's mercy and grace
    He makes ALL of the difference
    The bad in us, He can erase
    On the path of deliverance
    Inspiring!  Thanks for sharing!
    We recently had missionary companions in our ward that were both healing from military service and the ugliness of it.

  7. A big thank you to all of you who serve our country to protect my family, myself, and our countries future.
    It is amazing to see how the power of God can work in peoples lives to rid them of their burdens, pains, and anguish.  This is such a moving experience that strengthens my faith in the Lord.  Thank you to these brothers for sharing their experience to the world

  8. I am thankful The Mormon Channel did the story of my sons Chris & Mitch Taylor.

    This is a family disease and everyone suffers because of the behavior of the addicts. Denial and enabling them is not the answer! It is not our responsibility to save them.

    Unfortunately the loved ones are not able to tell of the nightmare they lived daily. I am very thankful for my husband Tim and Richie our oldest son who was there to help his brothers in dangerous situation's!

    I have watched the video several times. So many prayers from family & friends we're answered. Definitely not in the way I could have ever imagined. We lost so many years of life because of addiction and what war does to someone .

    Referring to what Mitch said. I had to do something different. For years my life was so overwhelming. I was doing everything to try and help them, when I should have helped myself. Believe me it wasn't easy and did not happen over night.
    I was able to give my burden's to my Savior and trust him with faith, patience, and hope to never give up on my son's. Or our family. I started going to a LDS Family Support Group. I currently am serving as a facilitator for families who have loved ones suffering from addiction. 🙏👼

  9. I noticed how one brother said "Each day I wake up I can give these memories to Christ".  Starting each day over again is a principle of living life with deep emotional and spiritual injury.  It isn't about everything being fixed in one emotional moment with the Holy Ghost.  The pain must be dealt with daily and given to Christ daily.

  10. This is such an amazing video!  The strength in their faith is inspiring.  The loneliness issues is a big one.

    This gives me a lot of hope I will get through what I need to get through.  Thank you.

  11. Yes, just like our son SGT Adams D he is now out, and he was taken from us by his Wife, due to PTSD and now we don't have him and we don't know where he is..

  12. it's true you will carry these hurts to your grave. that's good! proof you are you are love. coming from it and going back to it. YOUR HEAVENLY PARENTS LOVE YOU!!! THEY ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

  13. I've been diagnosed with severe PTSD. Every day is a struggle. I don't sleep much because I'm too hyper aware. I pray constantly. I've spent thousands on PTSD therapy.

    What more can I do? .

  14. So don't go to war in the first place.

    Wars are about MONEY and the people that control; it and profit by the use of the industrial war machine.
    Stoked by the Luciferian Rothschild minion CIA…

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